A letter to my 10 year old self ❤️🫂

Little me. 

I wish i could have written this sooner. 

I wish i knew then what i know now. 

I wish i could have found a way to protect you from all the hurt they're going to inflict on you.

 If only i could have equipped you better to fight back. If only i had known things would turn out this way and discouraged you from hoping and believing too much.

 Maybe it would have avoided the look of disappointment that will be on your face a few years down the line 🤷🏽‍♀️.

I wish i had known sooner how cruel the world could be and maybe you would have made less mistakes in the future. Maybe if i had told you to lower your expectations they'd be fewer things to regret. 

Maybe you wouldn't trust so easily. 

Love so blindly.

Maybe if i had known you would have figured out the right things to prioritize on.

I wish i knew back then the importance of keeping God close. Maybe you wouldn't have to lose your faith nor yourself along the way. 

I wish i could have taught you to love yourself sooner maybe they wouldn't dare feed on your insecurities.  

If only i knew that life would play so many mean tricks on you. If only 💔.

Maybe 8 years down the line you wouldn't be bleeding over loss. 

I am sorry that everything you dreamt of growing up won't be. 

I'm sorry that in a few years to come you'll be hurting. Lost. Empty. Afraid. 

I'm sorry that you're going to lose people you never anticipated you'd lose.  People that meant the world to you. I'm sorry that you're gonna have to love , detach and forgive even without wanting to. 

You're going to experience heartbreak. 

I'm sorry that your home is going to fall apart and you're going to be helpless.

I'm sorry that womanhood won't always be kind to you❤‍🩹.

I'm sorry i hadn't foreseen the many backfalls and downfalls coming your way. 

Maybe if i had known i would have taught you to be more porcelain. More uptight.

I'm sorry that in a few years you're going to have the world on your back and not know what to do.

You'll be consumed with great fear. So much anxiety. 

I'm sorry that you're going to shed so many tears.

But if it offers any solace i also know that inbetween all the downfalls , after all the dark nights , the sun won't always shine away from you.

You're going to see better days too.. 

how long it will take doesn't matter. 

But i know you're going to grow into a stronger woman. 

All those things will build you. You are going to over achive yourself. 

You will learn to find comfort in music. 

You're going to grow and love drake 🤍.

You will grow to love sunsets 🤎.

You will grow to be comfortable in your own skin 💛.

You will meet new people and blindspot the hurt. And at the end of the day you won't be alone because these people will always show up for you 💙.

And everytime you fail to think positive drake's words will ring in your ears

" When a good thing goes bad it's not the end of the world. " 

And you're going to be proud of yourself for giving it your best everyday 🤍.

North face by odie❤