The universe in motion❤๐ŸŒ

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You ever just sit out at night and stare into that dark, blank space? See and feel all those things that could have been, should have been? Yeah me too.

Let me let you in on my fears, things I'm so scared to let happen. 
I have metathesiophobia๐Ÿฅบ❤‍๐Ÿฉน. 
What does this mean? I have a phobia of change or changing things. I can easily adopt to anything and everything but change. Obviously for a lot of good reasons.
Change makes me nervous , anxious. It scares me not be in control.

I can't be the only one struggling with this. I'm sure someone is out there asking why me? Why can't it all just stay the same? Perfect? Why am i the one that has to do it differently? Why can't i keep the things I've been fighting so hard to keep?

My answer to this is that maybe you've been fighting for the wrong things all along. And also maybe the change you dread so much isn't as bad as you think ? There's always some good in the bad right? A blessing in disguise?

It may sound rich coming from me who hates Change with my entire being but just ... 
Do not be so quick to reject CHANGE. 
It's all i ask. Give it a chance. Be patient. Let it unfold. Stare into the darkness again. The silence may just tell you everything and even more. You just have to listen ❤‍ 
It worked for me.

I think it's just the way of the universe. 
It can be God, fate, karma or destiny ... whatever you prefare to call it.
I think the universe moves in ways that are beautiful and mysterious just to get you to where you need to be. It's own way of protecting you. Because i believe you can never end up where you are not supposed to be.

My advice? Trust the process. Always trust the process. Nomatter how much fear has consumed you.

The greatest lesson i learnt?
CHANGE IS NEEDED. 
It's how we learn, how we grow.
It's what i have been made to understand.

Whether you start small with a change of scenery, or something bigger like a change of perspective, a change of heart, of energy. It can be anything .It may as well go a long way. 
And if it doesn't work out?
Acceptance is key ๐Ÿ“Œ

I know venturing into any unknown is scary but the growth you seek is way more important. No exception.
Just take it one day at a time. Nevermind the downfalls . The universe will always be there to offer a helping hand.



 





Vertigo by Khalid ❤
Changes by lastee❤

Comments

  1. A happy place ��February 20, 2022 at 5:16 AM

    Change is one thing that most people are scared of.
    I refused to change when I was just a small girl but with time I realized that I had to change inorder to protect myself from this cold and ugly world.
    Let's us change for good

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 7:54 AM

      The world surely is a mean and cruel place. I'm glad you found what works for you❤

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  2. Hortensia Paulus❤️February 20, 2022 at 7:11 AM

    Ah this is beautiful ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ❤️
    Thank you for sharing this sis❤️

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 7:53 AM

      No , thank you for taking time to read๐Ÿ˜Š

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  3. JackieFebruary 20, 2022 at 8:06 AM

    As for someone that is afraid of everything in her life.... That meant so much❤️๐Ÿ˜ญ

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  5. AnonymousFebruary 20, 2022 at 8:59 AM

    I think it's important to really know what's worth fighting for to stay the same and what changes you'd welcome for things that aren't worth it. For someone that's a sucker for consistency any day, it's kinda hard to take you know those leaps of faith and just go looking for "growth" ����. It takes a lot of patience to just sit and listen and wait for the universe to push you into the direction you been seeking. I admire your courage and drive ❤��
    Plus me i love you please and thanks for letting me be apart of this important part of you ����

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 12:36 PM

      Patience isn't one of your virtues huh?
      I get that ... i respect that
      I appreciate this sm
      ๐Ÿ˜ญ❤๐ŸŒ

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  6. AnonymousFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:00 AM

    ❤❤❤

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  7. TaambaFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:09 AM

    This is a beautiful piece ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ™Œ❤️

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  8. UnknownFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:18 AM

    This is really beautiful,♡♡
    Earing it out there will really make a difference within souls.. I love it♥

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  9. AnonymousFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:39 AM

    A beautiful piece ❤
    I will remember the lines "I know venturing into any unknown is scary but the growth you seek is way more important"
    Thank you for sharing ❤��❤

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 12:43 PM

      Keep telling yourself that until you believe it ๐Ÿ˜ป.
      And also , thank you for taking time to read.

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  10. AnonymousFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:55 AM

    I really needed to read this because I'm currently at a place where I'll have to make a decision that will come with changes that I'm afraid of. But,at the end of the day change is the only constant in life and we can't escape it. We can only take it one day at a time.

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 12:46 PM

      So true and i hope that in the long run the decision you will make is what you needed after all.

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  11. Pine_appleFebruary 20, 2022 at 10:29 AM

    Being able to showcast this vulnerable side of yours,really makes the piece more relatable, I always felt as though change was something we could refuse to be part of... But with the surprise of age I had to come to the realization of change being inevitable. Thank you for "the growth you seek is way more important" genuinely need to hear that. I love the piece. I love the writer. I'm rooting for you my girl.. Always ❤️

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    1. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 12:52 PM

      I appreciate how you said that some things really are inevitable and to realise that many other people can relate on soo many different levels is amazing. Thank you for this vote of confidence and i love theee ๐Ÿ˜‚❤

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  12. Asseria February 20, 2022 at 12:41 PM

    Tangi๐Ÿ˜Š
    It makes me happy that you do❤๐Ÿค—

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  13. AnonymousFebruary 21, 2022 at 11:29 AM

    This truly is amazing keep at it ��
    I'm happy for you hun��

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