Social butterfly🦋

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Just realized that exposure to social media made me grow into the one being i promised myself I'd never be. 
When Nf said that " the internet isn't the right place to find self-worth" i felt that.

Yes, i can't deny that in most cases social media can give a boost to ones confidence, it can make you feel like you belong. I even agree that friends we meet on social media are great. The internet can be a great weapon when it comes to interaction and finding a connection with ourselves and others. At the end of the day for me it all comes down to this: 

All social media has done is make me feel more insecure about what and who i am, about what i need to have. I realized that it moulded me into a person i don't recognize.

I grew up as a child that had dreams🌱 Had great ambitions 🌱 Always been outspoken 🌱 And now? 

I've been bullied into silence, into withdrawal. I do eveything with constant fear of criticism , fear of not being accepted into the social circle . I feel pressured into doing and liking things because of the social norms. I'm at that point where i seek for validation from people. I've thought of taking a break from social media, cutting ties with civilization to make time to rediscover myself and all ... 

The realization that the damage already done is permanent hit me. It hit me hard. People would tell me not to think too much about it, that i shouldn't revolve my life around social media. But it isn't that easy. It never has been.

 It took me this long to finally figure out that it's not just about limiting the influence... The internet is just far greater than you and me

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  1. AnonymousJanuary 29, 2022 at 1:01 PM

    Finally🥺
    I am proud of you🤍

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 29, 2022 at 1:29 PM

    I really appreciate you for choosing me as one of those pipol to share this with, I have learned a lot n realised my circle ����❤️����

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  3. AnonymousJanuary 29, 2022 at 2:27 PM

    Thank you for sharing and, I can relate. As much as the Internet may be a somehow unfavourable place for one trying to find their selfworth, in certain instances, it really is helpful in finding one's worth or building confidence. For example I am ery insecure but theres a girl that told me i just need gloss and etelashws, peng!
    And sometimes one really needs that.
    Soo, it has its goods and bads right, balance that shit out, if that makes sense ❤

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    1. Asseria January 29, 2022 at 9:35 PM

      Considering i wouldn't even be here without it i get where your are coming from. Surely.

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  4. AnonymousJanuary 29, 2022 at 9:49 PM

    This already starting to feel like a safe space❤️��
    I'm really happy for you and may this become your new place of security and refuge

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  5. Pine_appleJanuary 30, 2022 at 8:22 AM

    Accepting that certain things aren't as important as we thought they are and actually coming back to share your experience with us, is in all ways...really beautiful. I ADMIRE YOUR SKILL....Cant wait for more

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  6. UnknownFebruary 9, 2022 at 5:19 PM

    BEAUTIFULL...I LOVE IT!!..YOU'RE ACTUALLY CREATING A VERY GOOD PLATFORM BY EMPOWERING ALOT OF PEOPLE TO RAISE THEIR VOICES.I'M PROUD OF YOU!

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  7. UnknownFebruary 12, 2022 at 2:15 AM

    What q beautiful mind I have for a daughter. Beautiful 🤗😪

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  8. A happy place ��February 12, 2022 at 5:34 AM

    I personally think that the internet can be a place where someone struggling with anxiety, depression and mental breakdowns, can really try to find himself or herself.
    Let's take an example of a person struggling with anxiety and depression I personally suffered from Those and the internet was my safe place but also my not so good place.
    I also agree to the fact that internet has a lot of bullying most of the people are being bullied on internet and a lot of people don't take it too good and they fall into more depression they let the people on the internet to live their lives for them.they just take ol all the comments that have been passed on to them too hard,they let the image that has been set for by the internet to stick with them for ever. I think the Internet is for the people that take bullying not too serious like they don't take things to heart but again I just feel that people should stand up against the bullying,the Internet is not a safe for people most of the time so it's ok and post your pictures its totally fine but don't let that people's opinions live your life for you.

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  9. Asseria February 12, 2022 at 6:28 AM

    I guess we all have a different outlook on these things ... Thank you for sharing 🤗

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  10. Piecewise NamibiaFebruary 20, 2022 at 9:31 AM

    Honestly, this is beautiful. Thanks

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  11. AnonymousJune 8, 2022 at 5:49 PM

    There’s a great power and positivity in acceptance. Accepting the fact that sometimes we let social media overpower us into making us feel less or more of what or who we really are. The internet is really a wild place and I’ve seen them disappear into the forest where trees grow. That’s a great empowering piece right there, thanks for sharing ❤️😊

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