Those in peril❤🌼

You ever just sit out at night and stare into that dark, blank space? See and feel all those things that could have been, should have been? Yeah me too. Let me let you in on my fears, things I'm so scared to let happen.  I have metathesiophobia🥺❤‍🩹.  What does this mean? I have a phobia of change or changing things. I can easily adopt to anything and everything but change. Obviously for a lot of good reasons. Change makes me nervous , anxious. It scares me not be in control. I can't be the only one struggling with this. I'm sure someone is out there asking why me? Why can't it all just stay the same? Perfect? Why am i the one that has to do it differently? Why can't i keep the things I've been fighting so hard to keep? My answer to this is that maybe you've been fighting for the wrong things all along. And also maybe the change you dread so much isn't as bad as you think ? There's always some good in the bad right? A blessing in disguise? I...